Unlocking my Heart for Him.

I haven't updated in a while. I thought it was time to share with those of you who read, what's been going on in my life and heart this summer. God has been moving in my heart this summer like never before. He has been teaching me so much about who He is and what He longs to do in my life. Starting the summer in Spain, was what I feel was God saying "Come away with me." He showed me things in my heart that had deep roots and issues that need to be placed at His feet. God has really shown me what it looks like to stop running from all of my problems, and to walk through fire with Him. He has been teaching me about the Trinity. That God is three in One. One in three. I should desire a relationship with the Holy Spirit just as much as Jesus and God. This summer has been one of God opening my heart to more of Him. I have been surprised at the levels of fear that are involved when it comes to letting the Holy Spirit move and trusting God and His love. I'm getting ready to start my last year of college. With lots of school debt and a passion for missions. I have no idea where God will take me. Right now I am simply trying to keep quiet enough to hear his soft direction. 

Back in the real world. But not really participating...

Well,  as I said... I'm back in the real world.  I would have to say that I'm not really participating in this thing called the real world. Mainly because I have my own house now, I'm paying rent, being an adult but sort of feel like I'm tricking everyone. Its not some evil plan. I've just had a really hard time finding a job. I guess when you come back from an adventure in Spain in the middle of the summer everyone already has been hired for their summer job. I am however, going to start stocking vending machines in the Simmons plants here in good Ol' Siloam. But its only part time. Meaning, from 8-10 at night. I may have walked through a plant with a hairnet on today. God loves to make me smile : ) 

But, I've been thinking. What makes your day really well spent? Is it making money? Paying the bills? Because I've never really been into that kind of thing anyways. So, I've decided to try my hardest to make money (which God is actually being the provider... like someone giving me money after barely hitting my car or a job working orientation where I'm given 900 dollars... things like that) but really I just have to live each day productively, but also... live each day a day at a time, and really for today. Not yesterday in Spain... or tomorrow hopefully in India. Why don't I just love my summer afternoons reading while I have the chance? Or taking pictures? Or getting to know God like He wants me to... or spend time applying for the mission board that I won't have the time to do during the school year. Do I have to feel guilty for not finding a job but God still providing? Is it okay to remain unstressed and relaxed in my favorite time of the year? 

I think so. 

Camera Shy

Some Art...

Nerja: the most beautiful place in the world (that I've seen)

The first few pictures are actually of Malaga. Which is also very pretty. On Sunday Ali and I climbed a huge mountain (felt like it) to see out on top of the city. You can see the place they fight the bulls, the port, and the sea and mountains. Very pretty. The other picture is of Ali and me at the top. We also met a few cool American girls on our way back from Nerja on Saturday. Fe, Tess, and Poppy. Poppy is living here in Malaga and her friends were visiting. So Ali and I hung out with them after running into them twice in two days (we figured it was meant to be). Ali and I spent Saturday in a town east of Malaga. Nerja is beautiful! We laid out on the beaches and had a great weekend. Poppy is still here in Malaga so we are going to have dinner together this week. Fun stuff. : ) 

The picture of the girl making bracelets was a girl from England. I thought she was pretty cool. Some may think differently, but she was basically a hippy living in a van in Spain. She makes beautiful bracelets and sells them by the sea each day. We talked for awhile. She likes photography too  :)

Anyways, I only have two weeks left. I'm sure it will go fast. It really has so far. Spain is beautiful. I find I enjoy it a lot more when I experience it with other people too. Pray that God will use me, and I can keep learning from Him and also work some too : )

Love and miss you guys!

The Sun and The Rain

 

God is love.

God is beauty.

He is the sunrise and the sunset.

He is the butterfly and the eagle.

God is color.

God is laughter.

He is knowledge.

He is all-knowing.

New and old. 

Strong and gentle.

God touches my face.

God holds the earth with the same hands.

He is the artist.

He is the musician.

Everywhere and walking with me.

No birthday and no end.

God is love.

God is beauty. 

Just A Few