Questions

Why can't I?
Why, Lord, can't I
be with the people of passion.
I long to live among the purples
and pinks of Indian spirit.

Why can't I?
Why, Lord, can't I
serve you in the way I desire to?
To sing praises to you in Tamil
and hold Jansi's and Shoba's hands?

Why can't I?
Why Lord, can't I
take in all the Indian babies,
and call them my own?
And instead... live here?

Why can't I?
Why, Lord, can't I
go barefoot in my punjabi
and eat with my fingers?
Do you hear my questions?

Why can't I?
Why, Lord, can't I
hear your voice?
or see your face?
Why, Lord, cant I?

You answer.
and I can't hear-
all I know,
is Walk by Faith.

Seeing more of His face

This spring break I was lucky enough to get to go to Florida for the first time in my life. It was so good to just have a break from life. My best friends and I went and stayed with a little family on Amelia Island. I was refreshed by the waves hitting my feet, hot coffee and cinnamon rolls, and enough laughs to make my stomach hurt.

Funny thing is, as much as the beauty of Island warmed my heart, the people we were able to stay with warmed my soul (cheesy I know). But really...Lauren and I were saying how beautiful God and His people are. There are so many beautiful believers around the world that I have yet to meet! And this last week... I met some pretty cool ones. These people are the ones that make you want to strive harder to walk by faith, to live a life pleasing to our Father. I have come back from Florida with a tan but also with a desire to seek Jesus and love Him with all of my heart. Thank you Jesus, for your people and for the body. You know my heart and my soul. Thank you for refreshing me in the way I needed to be. Let me love you first and with all my heart. Let me seek and follow you even when I may not hear your voice. Continue to mold me Jesus, mold me and teach me your wisdom. Let me have the faith to ask for your wisdom and believe that you will give it to me. Break me, teach me, mold me. Mold me Lord into your beautiful servant. Let me have authentic beauty that brings others closer to you. Break me, teach me, mold me, use me. Jesus, use me through out the earth. Let me be your light and an example of your love. Let me wake up each morning and hold your hand throughout the day. You are number one, Jesus. You have always been here and always will be. My life is short and meaningless. You, Jesus are the lover of soul and can turn my messed heart and mind to a beautiful one that desires to serve you and not the world. This is my prayer Jesus. You know me. Let me Experience YOU!