Well, as I said... I'm back in the real world. I would have to say that I'm not really participating in this thing called the real world. Mainly because I have my own house now, I'm paying rent, being an adult but sort of feel like I'm tricking everyone. Its not some evil plan. I've just had a really hard time finding a job. I guess when you come back from an adventure in Spain in the middle of the summer everyone already has been hired for their summer job. I am however, going to start stocking vending machines in the Simmons plants here in good Ol' Siloam. But its only part time. Meaning, from 8-10 at night. I may have walked through a plant with a hairnet on today. God loves to make me smile : )
But, I've been thinking. What makes your day really well spent? Is it making money? Paying the bills? Because I've never really been into that kind of thing anyways. So, I've decided to try my hardest to make money (which God is actually being the provider... like someone giving me money after barely hitting my car or a job working orientation where I'm given 900 dollars... things like that) but really I just have to live each day productively, but also... live each day a day at a time, and really for today. Not yesterday in Spain... or tomorrow hopefully in India. Why don't I just love my summer afternoons reading while I have the chance? Or taking pictures? Or getting to know God like He wants me to... or spend time applying for the mission board that I won't have the time to do during the school year. Do I have to feel guilty for not finding a job but God still providing? Is it okay to remain unstressed and relaxed in my favorite time of the year?
I think so.
