My Dear Friend...

Every morning when I wake up He wants to guide me. He longs for me to sit and just tell Him hello before I start the day. He is jealous for me and my time. He only wants to see my face, to hear my laugh, to carry me through the hard times.

He loves each part of me and has made me His lily white princess. He has more love for me in one drop of His blood than my whole life could give. He never remembers my faults. His beauty words cannot describe. Discovering the depths of His heart and soul would take 1,000 life times.

He wants to walk with me, to share my pains, to wipe away my tears.... He loves to have fun. He wants to be my best friend.... He just wants to listen. To comfort me, to show me that He is in love with me.

Why don't I want to spend time with Him??

The Best Lil Roomie :)

Each day God is teaching me more and more. One thing that has been something new in my life is rooming with my wonderful, hilarious, and beautiful cousin Rebekah. She teaches me so much. Rebekah is normally the last to complain and the first to make me laugh. She also makes the moment "a little less serious." We have always been cousins, but the more I live with her the more she becomes a life long friend. She always listens to me, even if she does make fun of me :) This last month God is showing me that it isn't always about Jeran. I am praying for God to show me how to love with out an end... to have patience, to have compassion. To know what to do when she gets sick :) I love learning more about my cousin each day. I love getting know the person on the inside. Even through the tears, the late night hugs and talks, the moments when I think I will never stop laughing, even when she on Steroids for her Bronchitis and talks the night away....... I love my cousin and thank God for blessing me with such a roommate. Even if she worries when I stay out late.... I love my lil cousin and thank God. I pray He will teach me how to love others even more, and I hope I can someday be a blessing to her also. :)

God Given Compassion

"But You, O Lord, are a God full of compassion, and gracious, Longsuffering and abundant in mercy and truth"

~Psalm 86:15

It is funny how God never fails to answer a prayer. I've told myself to be careful what I pray for.

The last few weeks I have had the desire to serve. To allow God to show me how and when. To notice the girl who needs talking to or to take better care of a sick roommate :) I never thought my simple prayer would lead me to the place I was tonight. A place that has left me numb emotionally. Never did I think I would be looking into the eyes of a woman who has lost everything she owns. Into the eyes of a little girl who tells me she almost drowned as she colors a picture for me.... that I would stand with a pen and paper in my hand as hundreds of hurricane survivors walked into the building to register at the camp they would be living at. Why does God put me in such a safe place when others hurt so badly? How do people loose their entire family and go on with life? How do people judge the sufferings of others? How do I? How do people not fall on there face before our precious Jesus who has spared us? Why don't people run to Him when they can't make it on their own? Why do I not listen to my own words?

My prayer is still the same. Except this time, I would like to ask for "God given compassion." Anyone can be compassionate, but what about compassion that never dies? What about the fruit of the spirit that knows no end? I pray that the love of Jesus will shine through my eyes and warm each hug I give. That Jesus can be the one who wipes away the tears. Dear God help these people...help the hurting world. Why does it take this to make me understand that people are hurting and dieing all around the world--- without YOU? Let me serve the Lord and have such a burden upon my heart that I will never say "there is no one to serve, no where to go, nothing for me to do....." Let me be serving one moment and in heaven the next.

My Bridegroom Always Holds My Hand

He always holds my hand. He never leaves. Just a whisper away is the beautiful lover of my soul. I owe Him an apology. These last two weeks I have gotten so busy and forgotten He was still holding my hand. I couldn't hear Him whispering in my ear due to my own shouting. He still stayed near... Loving me with a love I will never understand.

My dear bridegroom,

You know my heart and know everything that goes on each day. I love you so much, let me show you that. You know the scary things that are going on. College is so new and different. Let me hide in your love. Show me the way. Guard my heart from the world and the things that aren't pleasing to you. Show me the path you want me to walk. Keep holding me; don't let me go on my own. I thank you for your love and who you are. I want my relationship to be more intimate with you each moment of the day, take away the things in my life that prevent me from a love story with you. I am your lily white princess; help me to be that for you Jesus. I love you in every way I know how.... teach me how to love you more. Thank you, my beautiful prince :)